Rant, rant. RANT!

what am i to do? this is not going to get easier on either of us this way....

i've moved here, and yeah, i dont like it much....would you blame me?

if you were in a place where you had no friends (well, there are 3 i think of, but thats it)

you dont speak the language (and people stare blankly at you and you stare blankly at them)

and yeah, you dont have a job..... hmmm.... would that drive you nuts, i wonder?

and well you might say go out and meet people, learn the language, and its not like you dont work...

dont expect me to fall in love with this city overnight.... i come from a place where autowalas are good people who go by the meter, where they dont tell you to take a hike if the distance is too short..... where the minimum fare is NINE rupees, not twenty... and where they return that ONE rupee to you instead of saying "no change"...

its funny that you'd expect me to find wings in a place where i cant find wheels...

its funny that even GUYS who've been here all their lives blog about how difficult autos are in this part of the country..... so i lock myself up here.... maybe thats because i feel safe here..... bored, definitely, but safe.

Cogito Ergo Sum.... I think, therefore I am...

I am: outspoken to a fault!... also easy to get along with...also mad as a hatter!!
I think: too much for my own good... overanalysis will be the death of me...
I know: that this too shall pass.... that what goes around comes around... and that a kind word or act will always find its way back to you if you bother to expend it on someone else...
I want: lots of books, lots of travel and enough money to help me do that!
I have: finally found the man i want to be with for ever.
I wish: fights didnt have to happen
I hate: cockroaches top the list.... spongers come a close second... bitches and pseuds tie for third place....
I miss: my friends in Bombay and Ahmedabad and all the ones scattered over the world..i miss being 6 years old....
I fear: that i will lose my vision.... that i will have no ideas left one day....
I feel: very strongly about certain things and im not afraid of saying so...
I hear: very little when im on a bike.... its a constant source of irritation to my husband that im a space puppy pillion rider!!
I smell: the first rain... good most of the time!! (hehehhe!)
I crave: all things illegal, immoral and calorific! :D
I search: for important things that i have put away and cant remember where i've put them!
I wonder: if i will be mourned if i died tomorrow
I regret: some of the biggest harshest decisions i have had to take...
I love: my husband to bits, my friends to the ends of the earth, my family... the colour blue....
I ache: when i feel like im being judged... when someone misunderstands me..
I am not: as tough as i make out to be...
I dance: with great abandon.... :) i dance like im all alone and the music is mine...
I sing: loudly and lustily to some really silly songs...
I cry: when im sad or so angry that i cant say anything anymore...
I don't always: answer my phone. (i have that in common with the person whose blog i took these questions off!!)
I fight: with as much passion as i do anything else... life is no fun with no argument!
I write: better than i speak, sometimes.... long letters to people i love....
I win: when i complete something to my satisfaction
I lose: my temper ... faaar too easily sometimes....
I never: want to deal with loss of any kind.... yes, i am an ostrich in that respect...
I always: dream of utopian situations....worst case scenarios get me down...
I confuse: days, dates and times... i live on a different time zone :)
I listen: to my loved one's heartbeat every night before i sleep.
I can usually be found: sitting in front of my computer, cooking up a storm or laughing like an idiot!
I need: to know that im loved and will always be loved, no matter what.
I am happy about: the way my life has changed for the better, to my satisfaction.
I imagine: being successful and happy..and more than anything else, being at peace with myself.